Forever Enchanted

A blog by Kayla - dreamer, writer, wannabe novelist

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Another poem, plus the report you've all been waiting for

I've never shown this to anyone before...

September 8, 2003
Robert Wagner Junior Park, 12:35 PM

Journey of a Year

As I sit on the cool grass
beneath a leafy maple
I watch the harbor’s waters
ripple and wave,
sparkling in the sun.
The boats glide and sail
to places close
and oceans away.

I wonder about
my own course,
this journey of a year.
Will the waters,
rough and strong,
force me back to shore?
Or will I sail
smoothly, seamlessly,
on waves blue as sapphires
to climes green and strange,
boundless and beautiful?

I feel like I'm on another journey with this blog, though I hope I can go at it for than a year!

I'm better now so I don't have any more excuses…now for the report on my revisions...drumroll please…nope, not done yet. Oh, the twists this blog takes! Just got tied up with work and other things, but I'm in the final stages now, and I'll be done soon. I'm not making anymore deadlines, though, because if for some reason I don't make it again that'll look ridiculous. But the deadline wasn't useless- it really got me going. The end is in sight and I can't wait.

But now I'm presented with a problem. What am I going to do now that the saga of the deadline is over? I need another thrilling cliffhanger to keep you all coming back. Oh I got it. Next week, I will give you something dark and mysterious...a newly revised snippet of something that begins with - dare I say it - an E!! (dramatic music here)

Friday, March 24, 2006

Pardon this post

Hi folks. So about the report I said I'd give in my last post...well...um...let me wait to explain next week, when I can think straight, because right now I'm sick and I can't really write anything worthwhile. I tried writing the report in poem form in an attempt to be creative/funny, but I can't bear to show it because it's just too stupid ("Right now my head is a total fog/I can't believe you're reading this blog"- need I show you more?).

And now, in the words of Groucho Marx...

Hello, I must be going.
I cannot stay,
I came to say
I must be going.
I'm glad I came
but just the same
I must be going!

Friday, March 17, 2006

Give me an E! Give me an N! Give me a...

Hey, this is Kayla, the like writer-cheerleader, and I'm like so seriously excited about giving you this next like totally awesome Enchantia post!! Okay sorry, I'll stop...it's been a crazy week. This comes a little before the last snippet in the same chapter:

Sue approached me as I gathered my things from my locker at the end of the day, along with Tina, another girl from Fleetwood who I always got along with.
“Hey Jane, you doing anything this weekend?”
“Um—”
“Jane!” Megan said, running up to me.
I just sort of stood there, not knowing what to say.
“Hi Megan,” I muttered after a long pause, smiling awkwardly.
“What’s up?” Megan asked, completely ignoring them.
I stood there again, wishing I was alone in The Woods more than anything.
“Well I don’t have all afternoon, but I get it,” Sue snapped. “Have fun Jane...and by the way, Megan, I do exist.” And she darted off with Tina, who looked confused but kept quiet.
Megan just rolled her eyes at them.
I didn’t feel bad, not when I pictured Sue watching as Janet teased me, staying so cruelly silent, and then having the nerve to eat lunch with Janet and her laughing friends a few short minutes later. And if that wasn’t enough, she had rejected my invitation a few weeks earlier.
“See you tomorrow night,” I said to Megan as we walked out of school.
“I can’t wait,” she smiled, looking like she was dreaming up our adventures, as I must have looked most of the day.

If you're completely lost either email me or post a comment and I'll do my best to clarify. It's becoming harder with each of these Enchantia posts to find snippets that don't need much explaining or give a lot away. Oh well...I can't analyze this problem now. My brain is tired.

I'm not going into my progress with revisions as you know what's going on from the last post. But I'll give you a full report next week. Oh, the suspense!

Friday, March 10, 2006

Thoughts...

Starbucks is my official second home. I managed to rack up over 13 hours this week, by far a record. I only allowed myself one post-work social activity. Not that the current state of my social life is anything to be proud of, but that's part of the reason why I'm working so hard to finish it. I want my life back!

I've been going through a lot of emotions lately, probably a product of my record-setting hours. But it's not like I'm crying one moment and laughing the next. Maybe the better word is doubts. Like what if after working so hard and for so long, it's still not good enough? This isn't school. You don't get extra points in the publishing industry for effort. It's quite possible that every agent and publisher will reject my little story. And if that happens, does that mean I'm the biggest fool, wasting so much of my time and energy over something that will never be? It's times like this I wish G-d could tap me on the shoulder and tell me to either stop now because it's never gonna happen, or keep going, it will all come together in the end. But I can't exactly count on divine intervention.

Yet as much as I feel this way, it doesn't stop me. I keep thinking of two quotes. The first is from Defying Gravity, my favorite song from Wicked (the awesome Broadway show - and the book by Gregory Maguire is also good):

"If I don't try I'll never know."

That's really the bottomline. And then there's this great quote from Cate Blanchett. She's one of my favorite actresses. I found this in the Australian edition of Vogue (random, right? Found it in Borders on my lunchbreak). This is from memory so it's more a paraphrase:

"If you fail, do it spectacularly, otherwise you haven't taken any real risk."

I've extended my deadline to March 19th. When I came up with March 15th I wasn't thinking it through. Monday to Tuesday night is Purim, and I'll be too busy doing things like partying. And I might also have to work late one night because of a big event coming up. This extension should give me just the right amount of time I need, and I'm absolutely sticking to it.

I promise you'll get some real writing next week. But I have to say, you all should get a blog. It's a great place to let your thoughts wander (as long as you don't mind sharing them with your friends and/or completely random people!).

Friday, March 03, 2006

Wendell

I feel like telling you about one of the folks on my list of links- Wendell Berry. If I had no inspirations I'd have very little to write about. Wendell is definitely one of them.

I have all these great memories of visiting him with my family, as a kid and on through college. He lives on a beautiful farm in Port Royal, Kentucky with his wife Tanya, alongside the Kentucky River. He's sort of anti-technology, his house looks like it's from another time. They have the basics- electricity, a phone, audio/radio, and possibly a fax machine, but no TV or computer in sight. They use a wood stove for heat, and have their own water supply through a well.

When we visited we had a routine: chat in the living room, then go into their kitchen where Tanya, a really charming, intelligent woman, made us tea and served a cake we brought in since we keep kosher (it's funny, I don't even think I've mentioned once on this blog that I'm Jewish. But yeah, that's me. A nice Jewish girl - or at least I try). Wendell is a real presence - a very tall man with a kind smile, a great sense of humor and a warm Kentucky accent. He was always very sweet to me as a kid.

After chatting and munching were over we went with Wendell as he made his rounds on the farm. My brother and I rode on the back of his pickup truck to the various points, which was always a thrill. His sheepdogs came along, either joining us on the truck or running alongside. We visited his llamas, and giant draft horses used for plowing, since he only uses manual farming equipment. But my favorite thing was going to the sheep barn during what's called lambing season. It sounds cheesy, but lambs really melt your heart. They are just how you'd imagine them, little wisps of white, all cuteness and innocence. I tried not to think about the fact that some of them end up as lamb chops! By the end of each visit I inevitably decided that I had to live on a farm. And here I am, in lovely New York City…

And aside from being this nice farmer Wendell is also an acclaimed writer who has become a major voice of rural America or for anyone who cares about the natural world. It was sometimes hard to comprehend this when I saw him, because he lives such a modest life, but he is a real literary figure. He's been written up in the New York Times and gotten all sorts of presitigous awards. The Peace of Wild Things is my favorite of his poems, quite possibly my all-time favorite poem. My parents have a nice signed copy in a frame, and as I grew up it was always on one wall or another. I never get tired of reading it, and you can probably see how it's influenced me from some of my other posts. If you're looking to expand your horizons, poetic or otherwise, (he also writes novels and essays) give his work a try. There is an incredible amount of wisdom and beauty in his words. Collected Poems is a great place to start. Please email me if you get it! We can discuss.

You'd think he would be a good person to show my novel to, as he might have some helpful connections or advice, but I've never shown it to him. I would feel so disappointed in myself if he didn't like it, and I'd rather not know. But if it ever gets published I might work up the guts and send him a copy.

This post is almost over, I promise. I'll end with another (not so very exciting) update on my revisions. Two posts till the deadline, and this has not been a good week. I don't even want to say how many hours, because it's sort of pathetic. From next week and on it's crackdown time. I've always been a procrastinator. In college I'd wait till the last possible moment to study or write a paper. But in the end I always did what I had to do. Hope I can pull that off again. Wish me luck!

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